The Speed of Light - a Reading from Chapter 1 of The Majesty and Mystery of Time - God's Cosmological Constant
For all intents and purposes, the speed of light is a constant. It sets the standard against which all other movements are compared. But the speed of light is, itself, relative, because it is subject to time. Light and time work together.
Time is equivalent to the spiritual values of patience and grace. Light is the wisdom and intelligence. Time is like love—the bosom of patience in which all good grows and comes to fruition. Light is love's energy, quickening the mind and lighting the path. Light and time are both facets of God's patient love. Out of his love in the timeless realm, he sends forth the winds of time and the energy of light to brighten the darkness.
As you approach the speed of light, time slows down. This is because you are reaching the apex point where both light and time are the same. Traveling along a light beam at the speed of light, you are actually approaching timelessness. At that point nothing can change because time stops by becoming timelessness, and it is only in the matrix of time that change occurs.
That is why the Good Lord sent forth time with light as movement. Light lags behind time, and matter that is birthed in the matrix of time and light, lags behind light. Space is created when the forms come into existence. Space is the containant of matter, even as matter is the housing for light.
If anything, time represents the will of God. Time is felt as the sense that everything is moving toward some end. Time is felt as Divine Providence, where everything is nudged, shepherded and nurtured toward its intended use. Time is also felt as destructive, when things break down or as pride is dashed.
While we are on the subject, let's just take a moment to look at pride to see what it is. Pride is a movement toward unconsciousness and death. As soon as we are tempted to struggle pridefully with anything, we immediately lose awareness. As soon as something successfully appeals to our pride, we lose awareness.
Harkening toward a tidbit of gossip, for example, makes you less aware. A child might fall into the swimming pool and drown while mother is yapping unaware on the phone.
While driving, should your attention be even momentarily caught by something you want or something you hate, that would be the moment when an accident might happen.
The person who stops to stare at some item in a store window (because it appeals to some aspect of an image the person wants) is the most vulnerable to having someone sneak up and steal his or her purse, because his awareness is low.
The person who stops to gawk at the fascinating street side shell game is likely to be pick pocketed.
Our pride is also fed and involved when we fall to some challenge. The classic example is betting games, where we are challenged to win money. And because the game is rigged, we end up losing; and so we get more involved via resentment over losing and involved in trying to make good our loss.
Pride happens when we lose awareness. When we are aware, we are close to the Light where we are kept humble and thus cautious. When we are aware, reason comes to bear along with the ability to see through deception. But when we lose awareness, we become less and less conscious of truth. In this unprotected state, pride enters as a compensation.
Unaware persons do not realize that pride has entered, because they are unaware. Thus they think that the pride they feel is their own. They do not realize that it is an alien intelligence that has entered.
The victim of this entry does notice dark thoughts rise (of which he is ashamed and seeks to repress). He also notices that he begins to have cunning and deceit, and a type of dark cleverness.
The games, gambles, risky business, alternative theories, odd and occultic forms of knowledge, and the grass that seems greener on the other side of the fence all hold out some sort of mystical promise. We go for the promise, inclining ourselves toward it, and thus we begin to lose awareness and get caught up. Then we get robbed, cheated, molested, raped, or treated unfairly—which we resent, and then get further involved via the struggle.
We get involved more and more, sometimes for days, weeks, months or years. Whatever knows how to appeal to your ego, even if it is by denying you some simple acknowledgment, which makes you resentful and enticed to pursue it—will hold you in its grasp until you wake up and realize what is happening, along with a willingness to let it go and to let pride melt and die.
Most people keep trying to salvage pride. The reformed alcoholic gets religion and tries to save others. Or he might remain involved as a victim through the daily struggle with thoughts and feelings toward drinking. But remember--struggle keeps us involved.
We often take a grim pride in our struggle. Even the one who relapses often takes a grim pride in being a victim or not getting a fair shake in life. These false ideas support the maintenance of some pride.
Pride always involves clinging to something—some person, place, object, notion or idea we want something from. That is why we carry around baggage from the past. That is why we are loathe to throw things out. Usually we paid too much for them and we hate to end up losing money. We cling to memories because of resentment or guilt—we wish we could change the way things turned out. Some cling to someone they hate—sometimes out of guilt.
The person who ends up marrying or caring for the same type of person who hurt them and who they hate over and over again—wants something from the new surrogates she didn't get from the first one.
Otherwise, she is addicted to seeking what she got from the first--usually some sick attention to her ego--often in the form of cruelty.
The person who truly recovers is the one who sees his folly in the Light, repents of it, and then bears the pain and embarrassment of seeing his error as well as his/her own helplessness to change without seeking to salvage pride in any way.
Such a person sees pride for what is and lets it go. Along with the pride goes the fixation to time, person, place, or object. Pride attaches itself to specific times, places, objects or persons or look alikes. It won't let go. But as long as you identify with the pride that entered you, then you, too, won't be able to let go.
The secret is to meditate for objectivity. Being able to separate from pride, you will be able to see that its longing are not your longings. Its hatreds are no longer your hatreds.
Through objectivity, the separation will permit you to bear the pain it feels when you deny it its kicks. Through separation you will no longer need feel guilty for the lusts, hates and viciousness of the pride that entered through some long forgotten trauma.
Your use of pride permitted it to enter, and now it clings to you and won't let you go. Meditate to separate your consciousness from it, and wait for God to help you. Someday it will leave you. Until that day, meditate. Repent of your own resentments, doubts and faithless struggles. It feeds on negative energy, and it will cling to you as long as you cling to any vestige of pride, such as goals, vows made in anger, or resentments.
Can you now see why struggle with what you have become involved with is downright harmful? Struggle, by its very nature, keeps your ego involved. Struggle leads to frustration and resentment. Resentment leads to hatred, violence, self-destructive thoughts, bitterness, resignation and depression. Depression leads to thoughts of suicide.
Pride is there each step of the way, challenging you to struggle or give in. At the very end, pride tries to lead you to the final unconsciousness of death, and even at this point pride is there offering to save your ego by telling you that death is a well deserved rest or that you will be embraced by the light just “as you are.” It talks to you and tells you that the world would be better off without you and so on. Do not pay attention to it. Know now that it lies, and it has only one purpose: its survival at your expense and destruction.
Your recover depends on two things: One, coming back to awareness thru the proper meditation and realizing the folly of notions that save you from realizing your own wrong and foolishness. Secondly, your recovery depends on going out into the world with awareness, and through seeing the folly of falling for various appeals that seek to involve you, shrinking from them.
Realize that your susceptibility to pride is inherited, and is our natural propensity to want to play god, as well as a gullibility that inclines toward too good to be true schemes and scams. Our inherited gullibility and propensity to judge others are inherited as the vestige of an original trauma. Specific forms of pride then enter us and take up residence through our own personal traumas. We become prisoners of pride, of trauma, and of times, places, objects, and substances.
To become free, you must go the other way--learn to let go and forgive. You must be willing to let go of your ethnic and national pride and other types of pride. If certain possessions maintain pride, you might have to get rid of them, or learn how to relate to them properly. As you become progressively freer, you will begin to get close to seeing the original traumas, especially the one involving food. You will see how we became time bound, food bound, and earth bound as a result of the original trauma.
